We had exams this past week, one every day of the week. And so ends the longest week in my life.
First and foremost, I guess I should discuss how the exams went. Not well. In fact, they went very, very poorly. I think I failed two of the exams…and I can only hope for good marks in the other exams. I wish that was an exaggeration. In my defence, our physics prof told us to expect 40s-50s on the midterm, so I guess my 30% isn’t too far off from that. And as for programming, I will refrain from diverging into a verbal tirade on the stupidity of the course. Believe me, I am not the only one who bombed that exam, and as someone who tries to avoid excuses, this was completely on the prof and the course. But enough of that. Exams are over!
I really wish I had more time to study for the midterms. Our assignments and labs take so much time that I, and many of my classmates couldn’t begin sincere studying until the week before midterms. As you know, that is nowhere enough time to study in order to do well on the exams. A lot of time was also eaten up by interviews, and by God those were stressful. Preparing for interviews kills time like you wouldn’t imagine, not to mention the incredible levels of stress and pressure it heaps onto you. My roommate and I winged every interview we had during midterm week; he had 4, I had 3, and in total, 0 fucks were given about those interviews. It worked suprisingly well. It’s amazing how much better you feel when you simply don’t care, because you can’t afford to care. Sure, a job would be nice, but passing university would be nicer.
Speaking of jobs, job rankings came out today. I’m not usually one to share everything about myself, but I think I’m about to take a huge gamble, and writing about it helps me clear my mind a little bit. I had 6 interviews; of them, I was ranked for 2 of them, rejected by 1, and given job offers by 2 (and the last one I’m still waiting on). It sounds great, and it is; I’m very grateful for the success I’ve had. That being said, if I don’t get the job offer from the one company that hasn’t responded yet, I really think I’m going to reject all other offers and look for a better job. It’s a huge risk, one that has no guarantee of success. And here’s why I’m going to do it. One of the jobs I got an offer from is completely garbage…I want nothing, nothing at all, to do with that job. The other one isn’t as terrible, but it’s similar to what I did in my last coop term, although a little more advanced. I really want to try different things each time, I don’t want to lock myself into a certain type of job. Also, from what I hear, the salary isn’t great. So if I don’t get the job offer from the one company that hasn’t responded yet (which I probably won’t, I bombed the interview) I’m heading to the continuous round and trying my luck for something better. It’ll be stressful, and I may live to regret it, but it’s what I’m going to do.
What else is new? Well, in terms of class, I’m getting a little worried. I’m working hard, but evidently it isn’t hard enough. I’m going to have to go 110% to get out of this cursed program. I really, really, really don’t want to fail, because if I do, I don’t know how I’d live with myself. So starting tomorrow, it’s back to going all out, nothing held back.
But not today. I plan to relax like I haven’t relaxed in two whole months. I’ll try to post more often in the coming weeks, but like I said, unfortunately right now I need to ensure I do everything I can to pass this term. I miss writing, and as I’m typing this right now I can understand why. Still not sure why anyone would bother with this mindless sludge, but I guess I’m luckier than most. I’d love to be able to write more, but I’ve got a few hours of nothing but pure bliss calling me right now. So till next time, peace out world!