It’s my twentieth birthday today.
It feels very odd to have a 2 as the first digit of my age now. It’s the dawn of a new decade, I suppose. It doesn’t feel very different from being 19, but we’re only a day into it as of right now.
I’ve got mixed feelings about hitting twenty. On the one hand, it’s ushering in a new decade, one which seems to be full of fun times based on what I’ve seen with other people, and in the media. But I also feel like I need to take on more responsibility as an adult now. I don’t think it’s acceptable anymore for someone to pass my behavior off with the remark, “he’s just a kid.” I guess that hasn’t really been acceptable for some time now, but hitting 20 just seems to hit that fact home a little harder.
I also feel like at this age, I should have my life figured out, for the most part. I should know what kind of career I want to pursue, or maybe what kind of academia to pursue. At the very least, I should know what I want to do after university – hell, I should know what I want to do in university. It’s a little concerning that I don’t know the answers to any of that yet.
But the decade is still young – only a mere day, in fact. So rather on dwelling on the challenges that will come with it, I’ll instead take a moment to reflect on how much fun the last one has been. There have been both ups and downs, but mostly ups. I’ve got pretty much nothing of substance to complain about in my life right now, much as I like to complain on the internet. I’ve got a great family, great friends, go to a great university, and overall live a great life. If nothing else, I hope the next decade brings much health and prosperity to all I love. Because when they’re happy, I am too.
Maybe ten years down the road, on the verge of ushering in yet another decade, I’ll look back on this post, and reflect on the way things unfolded. I’d like to emulate what I’ve seen in my successful coworkers by the time they’ve reached (or are around) that age. (I’d also like to emulate my parents, but I don’t really know what they were like when they were that age – after all, I wasn’t alive to see it!) I want to be something like my last manager at my second coop – mid twenties, and already in the management chain, living life to the max in downtown Toronto. I want to be something like the lead developer at that job – also mid twenties, and a pivotal part of a company that wouldn’t be there without his efforts. I want to be something like some of the better professors I’ve had – early thirties, settled down, pursuing their passions and bettering the world with their efforts.
Above all, I want to be successful, important, and happy.
So here’s to doing just that. Let’s make it count!